Thursday, August 28, 2014

DREAMS








DREAMS
by P.J. Dunlap-Huerta

Peaceful, but not silent.  Nature’s symphony: chickens clucking across the creek, cattle lowing; blue jay’s and cardinal’s wings thrashing.   Cicadas provide rhythm as the crows add a bass voice.   Tiny chickadees and an oriole steal in silently to grab a seed from the feeder arms length from me, never stopping long enough for me to focus the lens on their colorful feathers while a squirrel scampers stealthily over the pile of logs nearby.  Occasionally a humming bird flies up to check on the strange creature on the porch and flits away silently as it came.   I just heard a leaf fall to the ground, loosened by the gentle breeze blowing.  Getting in touch with my inner country girl.

Sounds idyllic, doesn’t it?  But less than an hour ago, I was in a makeshift outdoor shower--less than ideal.  It brought memories of an improvised shower in an unfinished basement many years ago.  Cold water only; cobwebs to be knocked out of corners.  This one had a rough wooden floor; that one a bare cement floor.  This one had dollar store plastic hoses and fixtures; that one had store-bought ones.   Getting in touch with my inner country girl.

Sitting here on the porch of my Hillbilly retreat tears stream down my face as I remember the young girl who used to dream sitting by the creek bank with the smell of honeysuckle around her.   Dream of an education; dream of life in the city; dream of nice clothing and cars that hummed instead of rattled; dream of a house with real hot water in the shower.   Dream of being a city girl.

The irony of life:  Now the city girl dreams of retreats in the country, of the smell of honeysuckle, revels in the sights of sunrise over the hills and listens to the concerto of God’s creation.

God has been good to me!  

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

CITY LIFE



"That's it," he says. "No more bottles for you."

Leaning over the crib, the baby smiled briefly, "Uh-oh," only to dissolve into tears as Dad smacked my bottom sharply. It was the last bottle I was given. At 9 months old, I was weaned in a day.

My babyhood had been spent happily shoving bottles out through the slats of my crib as soon as the bottles were empty. I never did have much patience. One by one the bottles broke on the cement floor. Until the last one went "Bye-bye." I do recall conversations contradicting the ideas of the controversial Dr. Spock and his book, Baby and Child Care, published only two years before I was born. None of this pampering and listening to the needs of the baby for my parents!  Nope.  I was on a feeding schedule and we were doing things the old way.   Unfortunately for me, I really liked things my own way, even pushing empty bottles out of the crib.

In the wake of World War II, Dad had returned from the war and went to work in the auto industry in St. Louis, Mo. He and Mom married and lived in the basement apartment of a three-flat. Children were not allowed, but the landlord made an exception because he liked my Mom.

I spent my pre-school years on Spring Avenue. Dad and his brother-in-law (who was also his cousin) co-purchased a small four room cottage and two plots of land up the street. They divided the cottage down the middle: two rooms on one side for us; two rooms on the other side for them. The shared refrigerator on the back porch belonged to Aunt Lois; the washing machine they both used belonged to Mom. The tiny space didn't seem so small for my cousins and I. There was plenty of outdoor space and my grandparents' house next door. As for the land, they agreed to help one another build the houses, first one then the other. For fairness, they tossed a coin. Heads got first pick on the land; tails went first in construction. Uncle Gene won the toss; he picked the highest piece of property; our house was built first. We were able to move in before my sister was born when I was three and a half.

Mom always spent lots of time with my sister and I, reading books, reciting nursery rhymes and singing songs. Kindergarten was fee-based and optional so Mom taught us the prerequisite skills for first grade. By age three I had most of the Dick and Jane books memorized and could "read" them perfectly. By age five, I could actually read the words and could spell and write basic words. I was terribly disappointed in the fall before I turned six that I couldn't go to school with all my friends on Spring Avenue. The birthday cutoff was the day school started, September 4, that year. My birthday was November 30.  Left behind with my young cousin and baby sister, I felt abandoned.

Friday, June 13, 2014

IF ONLY


I read a book the other day.  A really great book.   It threw me for a loop though.   It was the book I wanted to write.   It was the book I wish I'd written.   It was the "If only . . ." book for me.

Maybe you've seen that too.   If you're not a writer-type, it would be a thing you wish you'd invented; a movie that went viral and you KNOW you could have done it. A business venture that someone started and it should have been yours.  In fact, you're sure you could have done one that was better.   If only . . . 

But now . . .   it's been done.    Sigh.  So we pad off to the tv, social media, the nearest chair and a book.

Today, God said, "I didn't give you HIS gifts, I gave you YOURS."

So today, it's back to the keyboard pounding out the book that really wants to stay hidden.   

The "If only" excuse is just another excuse.


What's brewing in your heart?   Time to get to work!!



Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Christmas Tales: "The Burning Cloth"


Christmas Tales
"The Burning Cloth"
Once upon a Christmas, a beautiful hand crocheted lace cloth graced our Yuletide table. It was eventide and the meal was complete. Plates had been removed, glasses carried to the living room for use while we opened presents. The dishwasher was loaded, dessert was set out on the buffet for later, and the dining room still had candles burning. An entire array of candles flickered amidst the greenery on the mantle. On the now empty dining room table in the center of the handmade all cotton tablecloth, two tall slender nutcracker candles continued to burn. Now these candles were the kind one buys at the dollar store, they were painted (probably with lead paint), not dripless, not long-lasting either. What can I say?? They cost one dollar for the two of them and they were cute. (I love nutcrackers!)

The tablecloth was a gift, of sorts. It was beautiful; it was made by hand. It was just the kind of gift that I would have treasured forever. There was one problem. The giver and I have history. Aah, you say, history!

She was an addict with several children: two teen boys and two pre-schoolers. We had helped her off and on for several years. We'd talked to her about the Gospel. From time to time she'd be arrested for being drunken and disorderly; once she was arrested for shoplifting. If we found out about it in time, we'd check on the boys. Made sure they had a place to stay. We had obtained furniture for her for one apartment when she had only the oldest two boys. On numerous occasions, we had brought food, clothes and other necessities.

But a few summers ago, she had received an eviction notice. She'd brought it for me to translate and decipher for her. I carefully explained what it meant, highlighted what date the Sheriff would come and toss her things out if she had not vacated. We inquired if she had somewhere to go. She assured us she did; she and her current partner, father of the two younger children, would take care of it. I warned her again that things would literally be thrown out on such-and-such a date. She needed to pack necessities in plastic bags for the children and find a place to stay. She said she understood.

We were busy with other things that summer, other missions projects, and didn't follow up until I got a call from one of the teen boys. The Sheriff had come that day, tossed out their stuff while mom stood by and wailed. Both boys were with a kindly neighbor and had nothing except the clothes on their backs. When they got home from school, they found nothing but garbage on the ground, he told me. Mom had managed to find someone to lend a truck and had some of the furniture in the back of the truck, but all of their clothes were gone. Less kindly neighbors had rummaged through everything and taken anything else usable. I'm fuming, "She can find a truck AFTER things are thrown out willy nilly! Why not before?" (I didn't say THAT out loud until I was off the phone!)

"But she did, at least put some clothes for you in a plastic bag, didn't she?"

She had not. And I was angry. Angry that a mother had not bothered to prepare for the inevitable, had not attempted to protect her teenage sons. As far as I was concerned, she was derelict in her duty. "A change of underwear for her children, at least that," my brain kept sputtering.

I headed to the store, purchased clothing for the week. Eventually one of the boys moved in with us. He finished High School. The other moved in with relatives and had to drop out of school in order to support himself.

About a year later, she brought me the tablecloth out of the blue. It was something she'd said previously she could make for me if I'd just pay for the thread. I smiled graciously, told her thank you, tried hard to remember that she is an addict struggling to keep body and soul together, and paid for the thread. The tablecloth was absolutely lovely. I knew she'd done a lot of work on it, but it reminded me of a woman who couldn't care enough for her children to stick a few clothes in a plastic bag when she knew full well she would be evicted.  Or to stop wailing long enough to grab a few clothes for the boys even as they were being tossed out the window.

We've lost touch with the family. They've moved many times and haven't called in several years. The two older boys work, hold down jobs. As far as I know, mom still drinks and does drugs. The younger children would be teenagers now. I pray for them. Maybe Mom has learned to care for these children, but somehow, I doubt it.

Back to the beautiful cotton tablecloth with two nutcracker candles burning while we were in the other room opening Christmas presents.

Rachel looked up. "I think something's on fire in the dining room," she said.

"It's just the reflection of the candles in the mirror," I replied calmly.

"I don't think so. Something's on fire; I smell smoke," she insisted. And she got up to go look.

Then we heard a shriek, and I raced to the dining room to view my two nutcracker candles bend double, the flame now merged with the burning tablecloth. I turned to the kitchen, grabbed a pitcher, and filled it with water. (No, I still don't have a fire extinguisher in the kitchen, but I do know it's a good idea to have one!)


Rob (my older son) quietly entered the room. Passing the buffet, he picked up the large silver platter of cookies and candy and sat it down on the flames. I scurried into the room with my water pitcher in hand to view a silver platter with smoke seeping out from the sides. Flames all gone. Fire out. Silver platter only slightly warm. Candy and cookies unharmed.  His fingers red from pinching out the last little flame.  The tablecloth, though, sported a 15-inch hole rimmed in black. The table also had a large smoked circle in the antique wood surface.

And every year, someone will look up from opening presents, glance toward the mirror in the family room and say, "Do you remember the year we set the table on fire?" Then we all laugh at how everyone reacted: Rachel, who had sounded the alarm; me frantically filling a pitcher with water; Christy, Brad, and Bob watching from the kitchen door as Rob put the fire out.

And I remember the charred tablecloth that I tossed in the garbage and pray for a very lost woman who again has two teenage children.

*Written in 2007 - "Life in the Manse" 
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Monday, June 2, 2014

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